well ok not really a message from half a person but I feel like I have lost my right arm without Jen being around. Well what can I say its been a bit of a strange day all in all last night wasnt a good night for anyone of us as Jen was nervous about her job and I was nervous about her starting and nervous about being without her honestly its been a year since she left her last job to come with me to america etc etc and it means we have been together pretty much none stop apart from the occational split to go to the toilet or when jen managed to escape my clutches for a few minutes I swear I felt sooo bad today not just because she was going to work but because I felt so selfish wanting to keep her home with me. I felt so bad today though like i was missing the complete right side of my body, I missed Jen so much, I am feeling bad alot lately mainly because of the usual neanderthal man thing that it should be me going to work and Jen can stay home with belle etc etc but I just feel so bad that jen has married this person that seems to be falling apart and not much use for anything or anyone I just cannot see what she, likes about me half the time, let alone loves about me!. I just feel like I dont do anything to help Jen or belle half the time. I just feel so useless at times. god there I go again being selfish and talking about me, me and me! anyhow back to the tales of the day.
I got up this morning and made her a cuppa to keep her cosy warm she didnt want any breakfast as the nerves were doing a number on her stomach. so we got ready and headed off we left a little early as we wasnt sure what it would be like on the roads we completely forgot that it was half term so it wasnt too bad but we got there way too early so we parked down a little country lane and just chatted for a bit before going and pulling onto the drive of the care home then we kissed and said our goodbyes and Belle and I headed off to the local tescos to get some essential bits and bobs hmmmm and of course a comic for belle and some more socks I honestly dont know what she does with them all she seems to like running around barefoot all the time and throws her socks here there and everywhere. we came back and unloaded the shopping and belle and I watched night garden and waybuloo before we kicked the ball around outside then had a spot of lunch and belle watched spongebob while I tidied around and prepared some veg for tonights tea. before I knew where I was it was time to go and pick Jen up. She has had a good day though and enjoyed meeting everyone although it was a long day she thought she would only be going for a few hours not 9 to 5 and she hadn’t taken any food with her so she was starving when she got home I made dinner and we put belle to bed before slobbing out infront of david attenorough on TV but I think I am gonna head off to kip now maybe make up for the kip we didn’t have last night. Hope you all had a good day out there in blog land
Enjoy :wave: